For the first time in a long while, I feel really hopeful again, as if nothing could go wrong now. I know it's still a possibility that something bad happens, but I want to stay positive. For myself, and for him. For us.

So much has happened in a few months. A couple of times we've been close to breaking up, but... we managed to fix things and stay strong. We might've become even stronger than before, to be honest.

We've had to change our plans countless times already, but the path we're on now seems more stable than before..
He was supposed to come spend Christmas with me, but his parents won't let him. Saying they have a bad feeling about it, blah blah blah. I know they're worried, but that's just ridiculous. And when he said he'd want to study over here they flipped and said they'd disown him if he did. So... that leaves me with little choice but to go over to the US myself. -sigh.- It's more expensive, more difficult... but for him, I'd do anything. And at least he'll support me financially, with the tickets and visa etc..

He said that his parents told him he could move into the condo they have back in Miami. That would be awesome and we wouldn't have to worry about enormous housing costs. I could even take my pets with me..

We're gonna get engaged when I go over, and I made him promise he'd marry me within a year from that. Next summer seems most likely.

Now the only fear that I have is that my visa application would be turned down. I hope that doesn't happen, since we have everything planned out okay.. and he'd help me get a job too. He knows Miami pretty well, having grown up there... and I could maybe start doing commissions for a little extra income..
So we'd be able to support ourselves no problem, but, well, officials can be hard to convince at times. We'll have to see. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.. I want to be with my prince so bad.

So bad, I'll go to the other side of the world, to a foreign country, just to be able to see him face to face. To hold his hand and tell him I love him. It just isn't the same through a microphone, even with the webcam on.
I've never loved anyone else like this. I love my family, and I love my friends dearly, but now that I have to choose... I choose him. We've agreed to come visit Finland at least once a year, and I can see my friends and family then. I just... want us to be happy, and to stay together.

So, today I went to visit a breeder to pick a third rat. I'd had just a few small doubts about the choice I'd made just by looking at photos of the baby rats on her webpage. But when I saw the darling in real life, all those were gone.

I named her Garnet, and she's agouti coloured with "badger" type markings. Very cute. I'd had doubts simply because of the fact that the breeder had originally thought she'd be a "husky" which means she'd lose her colour over time. Which she apparently isn't since she hasn't gotten lighter already. :3

The funny thing is, that I went there to get one baby but left with two rats. The breeder had recently gotten back a few females that had been living with another breeder who'd apparently come to the conclusion they couldn't take care of so many rats. They were already four months old (exact birthday wasn't known) and didn't even have names. So I named the cutie mink masked/capped(not exactly sure which one she is) femme Crystal.

So I brought them home and put them in the cage with Opal and Amber. They immediately got along, as was expected - they're rats, after all, and females at that. Silly Garnet's trying to dominate the others - she's quite rude for her age :'D But Amber and Opal have been showing her her place. They were already all sleeping together in the hammock I have hung up in the cage, so cute.

Just watching them makes me smile.
I can't understand how I didn't realise earlier what wonderful creatures rats are. I'd always liked them but that's it, pretty much.. but when Opal and Amber were born and I held them for the first time.. I guess I could say it was love at first sight, haha. They're so curious, so intelligent and love attention and affection.. They make a perfect pet. <3

And no, all this hype about my rats does not mean I'm neglecting my cat, far from it.. I'm planning on having her have kittens before she's spayed. :3 We've already found a pretty good father candidate, I'll just have to take care of Mako's vaccinations and such first. My friends have been pretty excited about the thought - there're two that actually talked me into this. They really want Mako's kitties. o: And all this time I've had her I've been considering kittens, since I'd love to have two cats. So, now it's settled. It's a bit time-consuming though.. And at the moment, Mako is in heat and pretty much driving me crazy with the noise she makes :'D I have to lock her up in another room every night to be able to sleep.. I hope it'd pass soon cause I don't exactly enjoy treating her like this.

I just got my own laptop. OwO
I've been waiting for this day, for so long.
Muahahahahahahahaha. xD

Yes, indeed.. now I can save up better, not having to spend so much money on phone calls and online time at an internet cafe!

About time I updated this thing. .___.

I've just been... well, not exactly busy, but... I guess "lazy" would be the closest to what I'm looking for here.
Meh.

Things are going slightly downhill again at the moment, but I know it's only temporary. I'm just easily annoyed when things don't work out.

But, on a lighter note, my relationship is going better than ever and I'm going to go to North Carolina for two weeks in July. :3
I'm really looking forward to it.

I'm also going to get two rats very soon, something I am also looking forward to. The two particular rats are probably the most adorable ones I've ever seen.. Pictures will come eventually.

So yeah, I guess there's still some sort of a balance between positive and negative stuff in my life. I just wish I could do something about the bad stuff ASAP.


And one last thing.
Tomorrow is 's birthday. ^^
She's my best friend and an amazing artist.. I'm really happy to know her.

I'm going to start working at McDonald's in a few days. I know some people say that it's a crappy place to work at - but I don't care. Personally I'm just really excited to finally have a real job.. so that I can finally start saving up for my trip to the US. And soon I can also get my own computer!